I find myself asking that question after everything that has been going on in my life... I'm starting to feel that the old phrase "No good deed goes unpunished" is really true. For years I've tried to do the right things even if they have not been the best for myself and all I have been getting in return is big kicks in the balls. I am loosing control of my life and am not sure how to stop that from happening. My oldest daughter just moved in with her mom after problems here with her sister. Now that inself may be somewhat understandable, but oldest and her mother do not really get along. I have spent countless hours listening to oldest about stuff with mom. Several months ago, this subject came up after we moved and the kids were going to be going to a new school. It took awhile, but after talking with everyone involved, it was decided that oldest should remain living with me. No more talk about it until the other day, when the ex called me and told me she was moving in. I tried to argue but the ex told me something that was true... If she took it to court, they would tell me the oldest could live with whatever parent she wanted to... So she moved that night. No sorry dad for going behind your back.... not talking with you about this, nothing. And shit it hurts... more then Tink or anyone else can guess. I'm trying very hard not to be mad at oldest right now, but not really suceeding with that plan. I have not really talked to her since she moved, but then again, she has not tried either. Makes me wonder who is being more childish here... Her for moving the way she did or me for my wounded pride.
Add to that job hunting, a truck that is about on it's last legs, bills, house work, and dealing with all the other every day things that are going on..... No wonder Tink gets out of here when she can to go for walks and stuff.
So what is next??? I'm not sure I really want to know...